When I write, I create a character I like and I attempt to get the history and uniqueness of the character down. (I usually write romance so most of the story is from the woman’s point of view) I set out the cast of characters, placing them just so, and I start writing with my idea.
But then, no matter what I do, no matter how different I’ve made the gal, suddenly I am the gal. Her emotions are mine, her goals are usually mine, though I do attempt to escape that and make her different. She shouldn’t be an insecure nut when she’s a photographer, should she? She doesn’t need blonde hair again, does she? Seriously now, does she have to love books?
And yet, no matter what I try, a part of me, or more than a part of me becomes the character.
I was extremely bad there for a while when all my heroines were blonde, blue-eyed, writer/reader/romantics. I’ve gotten a bit better about changing hair color, though I do tend to lean towards blonde. What can I say, I’m proud of my hair and I like it. So I like to share it.
I’ve even started ideas/stories with a blank name for the heroine, only to add a variation of my name.
Guys seem so much easier to write about. And it’s very easy to say I don’t become them. I can make them anything I want. A fighter, a hotel manager, a photographer, a publishing house owner, a colonel on a space station, etc. No prob. (please ignore that half of them are tall, dark, and handsome)
Maybe because I can’t add in all the insecurities that I feel I have, so women had, that’s why I can sometimes write about a guy, and have him different from the last.
But I am my character, and my character is me. Until I can break that hold I have on her, I won’t ever get anything published, or heck, just written. I’ll just be my heroine.
Anyways, does anyone else become their character? Does your hero or heroine inspire you?